Recently I told someone, “You don’t get different results if you don’t do something different.” I always teach that which I most need to learn.
Trite. Easy words to say, hard to do. Especially when I’m comfortable.
My life is very good. I have a supportive marriage and family. I am strong in my faith. My business is of my creating and I do what I love. I am extremely grateful.
In the midst of this gratitude for what I have: I desire change.
I stretched myself this morning. I chose to ride my bike to the office.
Yes, it took me a while. I feel out of shape. There are aches and pains my body has. My monkey mind sure was screaming at me; mainly yelling “You have so much work to do Jessica – get to the office faster so you can get going on it!” and “You’re probably going to need your car, Jessica.” and “How are you going to carry all the stuff you need at the office?”
On the route, my monkey mind screamed, “Are you crazy, this is going to take you forever to get to the office. You’ll never make it. This hill is so hard. Your butt is so big. Your knee hurts. Turn around. Go back.”
I told my Monkey Mind – “Suck It.”
My pattern is: I put my needs for centered, meditative time to move my physical self to the side while I do all kinds of other stuff.
Right now, that other stuff is:
*drip launch the new business – writing curriculum, promoting workshops, and marketing and sales.
*maintain my current client projects.
*talk with prospects to fill my pipeline.
*develop center of influence relationships for the new business.
This pattern sucks me in every time. I am my highest critic. I set super high goals for myself and have high expectations. And, as I’ve been told, I don’t cut myself much slack. I can hear some loved ones right now about to give me crap for jumping in with both feet to some projects and having high expectations. To my two beloveds, I say, “Thank you for loving me.”
The bike ride didn’t hurt physically (much). It did remind me of how disconnected I have been from my physical and emotional self.
The bike ride did give me time to let my mind wander. To avoid writing the lists I am so fond of writing, to listen to my highest self.
I don’t know if I’ll ride my bike to the office again tomorrow. We’ll see what happens in the morning.
I do know I feel hugely successful for making a different choice today.